This has been the year of accepting that I can do it all, I just can’t do it all at once. I’ve learned what I need to put on the back burner and what I need to make a priority and while I am still trying to find out how exactly to balance everything, it is getting better every day.
I’ve stepped away from creative things for a while because full time work and full time school required all of my attention. This was a choice I made because I know in the big scheme of things I will be much happier pursuing a career in education than I will be with any career I could have right now. My school is on a break until August, so it’s time for me to dig back into the creative things I love, like writing, sewing, and (most importantly) making music.
I am just turned 27 and the realization that I am now in my late twenties makes me fearful that I am ‘too old’ to start seriously pursuing dreams that seem designed for the young and hopeful. But that’s just a new excuse to make for myself. There are always going to be a million excuses: I don’t have enough money, I don’t have enough time, I’m too young, I’m too old. All of them are bullshit. You find what you love and you find a way to do it. Sometimes this means more long term planning and sometimes it means giving up something else in order to go after what you really want, but in the end if you keep making excuses and you keep putting it off you will never accomplish anything important to you.